Iam taking back my love

I'd give it all up, now I'm taking back my love,

my love, my love, my love...

I try hard to please you but I know it will never work that way.

I know how hard for you to accept all this, to accept what I did to you.

but I hope one day you will understand.

Relationship is not for me now.

I hope I make it really clear,

yes relationship is not for me now.

I just need my friends to cheer me up and support me. and that just it.

I need you as my friend. but if you hope for something more, I just cant say yes.

I suffer enough to see u suffer.

I suffer enough to get suffered by your sufferation.

I just cant help it.

I just cant get it fix. We just cant get it fix.

I am not for you and you know it, and you keep on pushing this relationship till this far

I got to end this.

Thanks for your love

'Am Sorry.

I deserve nobody

You dont deserve me

Used to think you were the one
Yeah the only one
Used to think we’d never part
I laid my heart
In your empty hands
Thinkin’ they were strong
Now I know that I was wrong

You don’t deserve me – no you don’t
You don’t deserve me-and I won’ t
Waste no more tears
Waste no more thoughts
Thinkin’ bout what could have been

You don’t deserve me – no you don’t
You don’t deserve me-so I won’ t
Give you my tears
Give you my thoughts
Because you do not deserve
someone like me

Oh boy, you took the very best
And just dropped the rest
My heart broke without a sound
Without a beat
When it touched the ground
You let me fall and I fell
But I learned the lesson well

And I know you ll never find someone like me

Yes you!

ARQ

Today Prof Adlina was jz advicing the student not to drop ARQ. and I'm SO agree with her. ARQ is Assertion and reasoning question. the only reason why they want to drop it because the question are too hard and lowered their marks. Damn, the students always want the easy way. Although I always want the easy way also but come on la, its Medicine. We are studying this not for saja2 and we are not tested and evaluated to prove how stupid the MAHSA MBBS student is (which is quite true) but this is for our own good. We'll never know which level we are now if we are not tested with all this type of questions. I dont even think they had ever tried enough. If we are not even out from the comfort zone, i think most of them will be very vulnerable to this type of virus I've just discovered, human Lazynoma and failurize Virus (HLFV). Its actually an endemic disease here in MAHSA. I hope they'll discover vaccines for this. They are so very senang lenang sometimes and im not envy, I just want everyone to wake up! We are actually not good enough compared to all other colleges out there (im talking about overseas's). I also sometimes very lazy and sleep all the time but at least I know I need to work hard for this. there's nothing easy about medicine. the only thing that easy if they make easy questions but in the future, do you think They will let u confront something very easy in ur life?

There is a long way to go guys... and this just the beginning. Even the beginning(which is nothing lg) pun you still always demand, still want easy easy easy. How can you face the future with this such of attitude. Think.

Weird results

I just got my result and the result is damn weird. i got damn good.

i wont lie, the questions was quite tough. i know i'll not getting below b, but A- is TOO GOOD. and for the first time in MAHSA's MBBS student freaking life, almost half of them got A- and above. 99% pass the exams??? this is freaking wrong and weird man. and I'm not satisfied at all. i started to think they change or lowered the grades which are not good. I feel im getting the marks that i shouldnt get. i dont deserve it. how can they improve with that such of grades. they was very damn satisfied. They think they are so hebat, study so sikit but get a very good result. Maybe this is good for the dean, the MQA, and whoever people who visits MAHSA, but for the students? a future most credibility, diligence, doctors, hey we are not playing lifes here. how can you treat sick people with that kind of knowledge you have. Doctors are not all about the skills, but the head. bad head wont create a superb skills for sure. This is not good. i hope this wont last long. i'll study harder. the only one that deserve to satisfied is the one that got A solid. maybe the true marks will be A-. but for me maybe i got B or B+. i know my own kemampuan. when i didnt study i wont got the best results. maybe good but not the best. if we dont feel the pressure, we are not trying enough! Don't dare to reach the stars if you dont even JUMP.

I miss Him...:(

I always, always n always wanted to be a better person, to be good, to be nice to other ppl... blah3x....

but still i had this black pieces in me that make me Easily annoyed with other ppl.. why why why?? I can't stand this feeling too but it never goes away.

Ohhh how much I miss Him... :( He is the only one that can help me to solve my problems..

ALL my problems!

Where are You??? Did I really forget you??

I need You, I REALLY2 need you...

always always always!

plz dont apart from me

please dont leave me alone...

I need your love

I need your blessing...

Oh the Creator of the universe

Oh Allah.... Help me.

(Janganlah Kau tutup pintu hatiku setelah Kau memberi hidayah kepadaku...)

Trying to be better AGAIN

Bantulah aku Ya Allah

sesungguhnya hati hamba mu ini mudah goyah

iman hambamu ini naik dan turun...

Jadikanlah hatiku ini seperti hati2 orang bertakwa

jadikanlah imanku ini sperti iman ahli tabiin

Teguhkanlah hatiku Ya Allah..

Sesungguhnya aku mudah hanyut...

dan leka dengan kesenangan dan kebahagiaan dunia yang menipu...:'(

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