Loneliness

Loneliness

is part of me now

I dont like it to be this way

Its not something that i want

But maybe

Its just something that i need

I dont have friends

I dont have loves

maybe

This is the best for me

ma,

You always look down at me

You never think I'am clever

You never think I'am smart

You always told me that i have no feelings

You talk something about me that never true

You never know about me mum

You never know about me.

Ma,

Thanks for everything that you have done for me

Sorry for all the hard work to gives us food, shelter.

All the money, the trust that you gave me

I never misuse it mum

I just hope you realise that.

Mum,

I never talk back when you shout at me

I always do all the house work so that you can come home and be happy

I always study hard to get an A

Just for you mum

I always stay at home

I never jalan2 and finish my money like what you accused me

I tried the best to be the best of me

To be the best person to you

To be the best person to Allah

But mum,

When you get back from your work

You still with your thoughts of me

You still dont think i'am clever

You still dont think I'am smart

You still look down at me

You said I never thankful for everything I had

But I started to wonder

maybe you are true mum

maybe I'am not thankful

For all this

I still feel emptiness in me

For all this

Now I know how money can't really buy anything

Oh God,

Forgive me for not be thankful

Forgive me to feel this way

Ya Allah,

Help and lead me to the right path

Forgive me for all the sins that I've done

mum,

Maybe you forget

I always love you mum

I do have feelings

Its not your money that I craving for

Its your love

Maybe you cant give your love

But please stop accusing me

Stop think of something that I'am not

Please do appreciate everything I do for you like how I appreciate everything you do for me

That's all I ask from you mum

No matter what

I always always always want you to know

I do have feelings

I do always love you